I'm sitting here reflecting on yesterday's Eliott. I was such an angry jerk. Unapologetic and with no real reason. What's wrong with me?  Why do I still ask questions teenage Eliott asked about himself.   

I was angry for whatever reason.  Maybe it was from being isolated in my apartment for two days.  But I was testie. I said things to people  that were misunderstood. And I didn't apologize. And I know the only thing I really want to do is throw the stick into fourth gear and keep going. But I'm going to be better than yesterday's Eliott. I hope.  

I know I'm a little late for sober October. So let's call this month no drinking November. Aside from me being a little brat outward  but inward I was great. Had plain greek yogurt for breakfast and after a workout I had two lemon pepper seasoned chicken breasts and an avocado with a handful of heart healthy nuts. So far so good. I'll keep you updated.  

Take care  

Eliott out! 

Me ole'factory memory.

I can still remember the racetrack,

Now gone. The land turned into some excuse to raise tuition.

I can remember skipping school with my mother and going to the racetrack with her.

Watching her say hello to old drinking buddies. One of them called me Damien.

He's now gone.

I can remember the scent of hot dogs and cigarettes. Blending together and forming the bottom.

I hear the hooves pound the Earth.

I hear the men swearing.

C'mon you sonofabitch!

I hear my mother's voice louder than the men. She's spitting expletives better as well.

At least I'm not at school.

So I got my flu shot today. So the government has implanted some sort of microchip, switched my genes, made me gay, made me sterile, is going to make me walk backwards, is going to make me sick, make my arm fall off, and sent advertisements into my dreams to make me crave Fanta.  

Which is all fine with me. At least I won’t get an elder person sick with the flu because I refused to let the government make me gay.  

Actually. I trust science a lot more now because I know the scientific community doesn’t trust our government. It’s kinda crazy. The government used to be able to hold that fear over us. But now that we know for sue science is on our side, go get a flu shot.