I went to The Goodwill to buy some cheap work pants.  

Looking at the rows and rows of work pants in one Goodwill, then picturing the rows and rows of work pants in all the Goodwills, Salvation Armies, and all second hand stores gave me reason to muse.  

The brighter side of myself things maybe the person got fat and left his skinny work pants to buy new ones. Maybe he found a new job where he could wear whatever the hell he wanted.  

The grayer side of myself ponders how many dead mans pants am I looking at. How many men have lived in work pants their whole lives and now here are the remnants left by family or friends. These work pants left by dead men awaiting a whole new generation to live and die in them.  

It's still morning. Debating whether I should eat. Or not. It's a conundrum for sure. But there are worse conundrums. Bit we have another conundrum to speak of after I get off work

The wind chill in this, the place of where I live is going to be in the negative twenties. I am not going out. But most likely will be drinking. That's to be sure. The drinking bugs days are numbered I feel.  

I need to produce a podcast. That means fighting with a slow computer. I've failed you all on a Halloween podcast and a Christmas podcast. I can't fail you on a rockin' new years eve podcast. You don't deserve that. I may need a gargantuan to help me get that going. I will be taking applications.  

Anyway be good. Have fun. Don't be stupid.  

Take care

-E-  

I am hunkered down. Awaiting the time to work. This is to be the coldest week of (hopefully) winter. And so, I am at the mercy of people giving me rides ( I'm not on a death mission) I don't like asking for rides. My problems shouldn't be their problems. 

I'm nervous about change. I've been keeping my head down for years. Part of me wants to stay in arrested development, victim of Peter pan syndrome. And stuffing my high cheek bones in sand. But it needs to happen. Old Eliott needs to look back next 2018 with pride. Not with resentment at that young Eliott wasting time.  

Ive been following National and World News the last two days. So much pain and uncertainty caused by world leaders. These are getting more vocal. We can fight and chase leaders from office after office like viewing meme after meme. Or we can become better at governing ourselves until a leader is no longer necessary. Or maybe I'm still thinking with a youthful heart.  

Can we stop killing animals for their aphrodisiac properties please?  

Take care

-E-